Saturday, January 31, 2009

CHOICES


I’ve never taken care of a bird before. Atleast not the way I’m doing now. As a child I remember taking care of an injured sparrow. I had kept her in the room upstairs as somebody had hurt her with a catapult and she couldn’t fly. She dint survive too long. Bad experience. Had howled for a full day and buried her in an empty site next door.
After years I find another one. This time bigger in size, nevertheless hurt in the same way, by a creature called the human being. It’s a female koel , a fact I dint know when I saved her. I found a bird hanging mid air, hoisted by her wing which had got entangled with a thread. The thread came from a kite that had in turn got entangled to the tree. U see, Jan 15 th was a kite flying festival. People helped me pull her down and disentangle her from the thread that viciously encircled her neck and her wing. Her wing was damaged. She was on the ground. If I left her that way I was dead sure that I just saved her from the thread, not from death. There was no real point. Crows hovered around her, the dogs became all excited. I had no choice. I took her in. Its been a week now.
People look at me as if I’m crazy, some are amused, they give me that all knowing smile, some say, ur so kind. I don’t feel kind. I just cant leave that bird alone. I cant leave her out to die. She cant fly. She’s neither happy in my room. But I have to keep her, in the hope that someday (hopefully in the near future, as near as possible)she will recover from her injury and fly again.
I have gone bonkers in trying to find food that she could eat. But the worst part is, that one week up and I don’t even know what she likes, im just placing an assortment of food and water hoping she fills her stomach. I guess she has, coz of the energy with which she’s hopping up and down.
Birds are a different ballgame. Dogs and other animals atleast respond to u when u give them food. This one acts like as if im planning to butcher her or something. There is no pay off. No reciprocation of attachment, love and the likes.
The only reason im taking care of her is that as a human, I have the power to contribute to ‘LIFE’- something that has been lovingly created by God, and a part of nature. If I have the power to add on to this amazing creation of God, I might as well use it, rather than boiling and eating her which anyways will be excreted out the next morning.
The bottom line is we, as humans, have the power to add on to or destroy life. Its just the choice that we make.

P.s : any advice or suggestions on how to take care of an injured female koel, is really welcome. Kindly refrain from suggesting to put her down or let her out before she can fly on her own. I AM NOT even thinking of that option. If she has to die, she will. But I will try my best to prolong her life till I can.

I have made my choice. I’m PRO – LIFE. not ANTI LIFE.


Please choose wisely.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Q & A

I'v stopped analyzing. I've stopped questioning Life and GOD.
I dont belt out why? why? why? how? when? where? what? who?
I'm just being; and yet still learning.
Life has never got simpler.
I'm loving it.:)

LANDMARKED........FOR LIFE.

Most of u all must be wondering what on earth happened to me? I disappeared for one weekend and i reappear making claims of starting life afresh and new, being a new me.....blah blah blah blah blah blah... Some of u must be irritated with the permanent smile that looks pasted on my face.

Ok... i got that ;)

I went to Landmark. Nope, its not the book store. Its Landmark education.

Yes, its true to its name... Its a landmark event in my life which has educated me... So landmark education.

Now a lot of you out there may have raised ur eye brows already . Search engines will search a lot of muck and splash you with it.

I was a big skeptic too. I took it because Jaysal asked me to. I couldnt understand what the heck he was talking. I started feeling miserable in my relationship. I could take it no more.

Something snapped and i said, fine, if u think this will help, il do it too. I had nothing, so what would i lose?

I spoke to dad, spoke to my boss, figured everythin out and finally found myself on the 9 th morning standing in koramangala, nervous and scared. 300 and more strange people. My!! what did i get myself into?

I was a skeptic, not a cynic, so i went in and surrendered myself to this ordinary looking man, who coaxed, cajoled, yelled, screamed, abused, empathised and entertained us.

There were times when i was upset hearing someone 's story, times when i almost fell off my chair laughing, and at times when i wanted to scream" what the hell is going on here?"

LM made me do a lot of things i would have never ever dreamt of doing. I was talking, laughing, sharing with strangers irrespective of their backgrounds, gender, age, religion and the likes.

I was convinced on saturday that it was truly going well for me.

Sunday afternoon, something snapped again. I went crazy...I was convinced again that LM was not working for me. I just did'nt understand it. What the hell was this man saying? I called Jaysal who patiently tried to help me out all the time i was there. All the time I had doubts he would hear me out and smoothen my frayed nerves. But this time, he just couldnt coz my nerves had got totlly jangled up and had a tight knot in them.

I went back in. And..............when i came out My eyes frantically hunted for Jaysal. Without a second thought, I reached out to this man and hugged him. The world was just a hum in the background. 340 people were coming out with me, but who cared? I was in a different world.

He saved my life, and our relationship, by just doing one lil thing, by enrolling me into LM.

Do I care what's written about Landmark? Do I care if it's called a cult? Do i care if people say they hypnotise / brainwash? Do i care ???

No, buddy! I don't. I've been LANDMARKED .........FOR LIFE.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

A new beginning!

I was born on Jan 12 th 2009. Strange aint it?
Im starting it with no past baggages, no remorse, no regrets.
Its a state of nothingness. NOTHING. period.
I am free to make choices after considering freely and not based on considerations.
I declare that declarations exist and I'm declaring that I can create endless possibilities.
I am being the maker of my life, and taking it where i want to take it to.
I am taking full responsibility for all my relationships.
I am chasing no carrot.
I am simply being.
and I'm lovin it.........................
Here's beginning a brand new journey.. with a new me.